“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1)
I would rather learn from the multitude of small lessons that we can find hidden under rocks, inside a smile, in the gentle nod of a person walking by, then the bigger lessons. The smaller lessons can teach us much and are much more abundant if we look.
Today, I worked out, I was tired. I am still working at a good pace, but I was more tired than the last time. I will have faith that this will get easier. I in fact have seen it happen, so I will have faith that this journey isn’t a constant arrow up, but rather a set of stairs that go in an upward direction, with the occasional step or two backward.
I like to think metaphorically, my work out is not isolated from other parts of life. It is an exercise in determination, just like my work day is, just like my Aikido, just like my relationships, and just like the inner work I do to be an open and loving man. Everything compliments. Compartmentalization leads to exactly that, a house that is not a house. A weird quirk of physics where it is a house, but all the rooms are separate from each other.
So I will have faith that my work outs will get better, which leads me to believe that if I can have faith in that, then I can have faith in bigger things… which leads me to the fact that I can have faith that this burgeoning, crazy love I have for a woman 2000 miles away will work out for us. We have to think (dare i say it… dare i say it…) out of the box, (ooooh snap, i hate that corporate speak, but i said it… shoot me) and unconventionally for our relationship to take root, grow and blossom. i am up for this, and so is she.
Of inspiration, I look to my beautiful friends Jennifer and Kirk. They were high school friends when Jen moved away, got married and spent 20 years in Canada. Somehow they found each other again. This inspires me greatly to see that love can thrive through the miles. I am touched deeply by their love of each other and inspired that I can in fact have that as well.
Till next time, Onegai shimasu!